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Hmm... I never would have imagine that a Playstation 2 game called Magix Music Maker could be addicting but it is. I love it. Well my life... it's just normal... like everybody elses... I think? School.. i just wanna get through last semester.. I totally fucked up 1st semester by failing tonz of classes and skipping them but this quarter my goal is to.. force myself to do my homework which still needs to be done tonight and to actually go to class. Dustin.. yeah he makes me mad a lot but yet.. I'm still going out with him? WHAT? Yes Stacee is. I don't really think I'm ready for a boyfriend, yeah it's fun to flirt and hang out with guys but a relationship/boyfriend type... NO! I just don't kno what to do with guys anymore... I think I'm letting all my friends take advantage of me. It needs to stop! Yes I love them but taking advantage of me? I don't really think that's a true friend. One thing about Jennifer I hate is that she has to meet all these guys from ages 16-30 and she brings them to my house and shit.. LIKE I WANT SUM 30 YEAR OLD DUDE AT MY HOUSE!!! KNOWING WHERE I LIVE!! That's pathetic and everytime she wants to go somewhere with these "dudes" she barely knows, yes I go because I'll love her like a sister forever but I swear to god, one of these days, she's gunna get into the wrong car, truck, van, or whatever the fuck he has and knot fucking let us out and kill us or some shit. It's the shit she's gunna get us into. My family.. hmm.. It's been challenging every so often with my dad and whatnot. I finally told my mom I smoked and she doesn't really mind and a couple of days ago my brother caught me, Elizabeth, and Dustin smoking behind the Studio and he almost told my dad, which I was seriously ready to move into Jennifer's house for a while, they'd let me, I've lived there for a while before. Family problems SUCK! I think I'm gunna try to quit smoking though... I hate that word.. "smoking".. I know it's gunna ruin my life (maybe) and especially make me struggle more with school work even though whenever I didn't smoke I had trouble as well. Fuck it probably won't happen though but fucking A.. SMOKING SUCKS!! If I were you, whoever you are, NEVER START!!! Well 6 more hourz until I'm on the bus.. another late nyter.. Love yah

-Dj StenZiLLL
(my fake sorta Dj nickname)